Who shot the shooting star...

Someone died today..someone who use to walk around in the office everyday and I never noticed. A face that I dint know... but I did stand for a minute in his remembrance. The minute which seemed like a year. A minute that tells you things that you dont want to hear. A minute that you dont want for anyone you know even remotely...The minute passes and I get to hear those keyboard clicks again. I kept standing for few extra seconds to give a glance to all those who went back to their place, as if nothing happened...May be nothing happened actually. Not for the rest of the world.

Yeah, may be you wont believe me right now but I am an optimist. I believe that I can do things, anything that is humanely possible... but beyond that lies things we cant control. No logic, No reasons and guess what..no Justice either. I dont believe in the concept of God. I use to, once, but not anymore. I have a different way of looking at things now. Nope, not a result of a mishap...just a gradual loss of faith. I use to believe in something very strong deep inside me. I cant find that something anymore. Why is this whole concept of God so screwed up. Why is it pain and fear of loss that scares you and brings you close to someone or something. If things go well, then he saved you. If it did not then it was meant to happen...Dont you think its funny ??? Alright, may be I am a little angry about something(s) but more than that its...well, how do we call it? disappointment...Disappointment not about not getting what you wanted, but about not being there when you expected...Its not a nice thing to say BRB and never actually BRB :).

No, I am not arguing on his existence because I think that will be pointless. A glass half full or half empty. Both are right, but both are wrong as well. May be it will make you happy if I tell you that I too believe in Miracles, believe in Luck, in destiny...in Love. Its just that I have stopped asking "Why". I use to have lot of questions once. Now all I have are answers....answers that dont have any questions. Precious but Pointless.

It makes me happy when I see people believing in something so strong. Its a wonderful feeling and it breaks my heart when people let it go...so don't believe in something for the sake of it. Believe if you feel it. Believe if it makes you happy...not in fear but in strength...then whether its God or Faith or Love or even Dreams, when you know you can feel it, the question of existence cease to exist....